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Let the Placements begin!
How many will I have? You would think a poor little girl could have had a break after all of that. However with my Mother dead and my Father unknown, my sister’s father in the wind and my brother’s father locked up we went into foster care. I guess my Grandma didn’t meet some requirements…
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How do you say Bye?
Let me tell you how not to say good-bye My mothers funeral was packed with people inside and outside the Aposotolic Faith Church. It was a church across from my Grandma’s house. There were so many strangers who spoke nice about my mother. Being 6 you could guess what I was doing in the gold/black…
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Upcoming
How far will I go? The next part of my story after my mother was brutally murdered, the family I was born into not really mourning but blaming. Having to step-up and take care my siblings and grandmother. Life for this 6 year old got hard, rough and I eventually passed away to myself. It…
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Being Strong
Some words are just foreign to people especially the word NO!!! Oh man all I heard was that familiar deep voice say, “Why won’t you just marry me.” My mom replied, “I want more for my kids, I can’t.” Of course I cheered inside but that wasn’t the answer he wanted. Now this is what…
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Face of Defeat
Its a face you’ll never forget if you’ve seen it… Have you ever seen the face of a defeated person, one who just knows they can do no right only wrong? One who knows they could never earn trust? One who feels they could never earn love? One who feels that giving up is the…
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Such a Failure
When you have no place to go, home should be an option. First let me paint the picture for you of what my mom was about to sign up for again. A disappointed mother whom she could never please, 5 sisters who were “better than her”, A neighbor that loved to fondle her as a…
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Her Jacked up Life
Why didn’t someone reel you in? My mothers life was not a fun one growing up with a hustler mother and a violent/drunk father. When she was in school and she barely passed but she did with a solid C. She was married in 1983 at the tender age of 21 to a man who…
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That First HIT
How does it feel? I bet it hurts. The first day I went to the hotel where my mother was living, we sat down for dinner. My mom had a stove, small fridge and countertop. She made some smothered chicken, beans and mash. How do I remember just wait you shall see. We sat down,…
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Where it Started
A phone call can change everything for better or worse. I remember the day that started the end to my “amazing” life or what I deemed amazing. My mom had gone to work and my little brother was crying non stop. My big sister grabbed the stroller, diaper bag and walked us all across the…
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Lose Yourself
I wanna be, I wanna be, I just wanna be ME! I woke up one day and said, “I don’t care!” I had had enough of the poking, moving, strapping in, pulling of the hair, brushes on my body, etc. I wanted a burger, fries, shakes and chips so I went out and got them.…